Mom should write more...

Every day so many thoughts go through my head. So many moments should be preserved. So many prayers are answered. And many new worries emerge. And every day I think to myself that I should be recording these things. I should write. To process my own thoughts. To document my children's milestones, to preserve our memories. Some days I think I should write as a way to scrapbook, other days I think I should write as a way to encourage wives and mothers- particularly my daughter and future daughters in law. Some days I think I have this wife/mom/homemaker thing all figured out- I can do it all! The schedule goes perfectly, the children are clean, calm and smiling, and I am fully dressed including hair, make up and accessories. Woo-hoo! Hubby calls me a rock star and I feel like one. Then in the next instant somebody pees their pants. While I am cleaning that up another little person approaches me hot with a fever and there are 2 boys who appear to be fighting a death match in their bedroom. The phone rings and it is my son's teacher calling about his behavior. And dinner is burned. So much for being a rock star. But even in these moments I am blessed. I know that God is using these chaotic times to grow and refine my heart and my soul. So even though in the moment I would probably be in tears or dreaming of a glass of wine, when the moment passes I am thankful for the lessons learned and the memories that we will laugh about as we look back on our family's story.