My precious babies Cameron & Benjamin have been on the road to weaning for a little while now and I am pretty sure it may be over :-( It has been a long, bumpy, amazing road that we have traveled together. Nursing them did not come easily and I am so glad we stuck it out.
Things had been different for about 2 months- they didnt have much interest and when they did nurse they spent very little time latched and suckling, and most of the time being silly. I could tell that my supply was taking a dive.
Also, Nathan had been terribly jealous and this had been upsetting me. I have felt so much guilt over his early weaning and this was not helping at all.
I had decided to continue or morning and evening sessions as long as they asked. Well, Benjamin has always been the asker- Cameron just joins in. On September 28th I just really felt the need to nurse them one on one rather then tandeming. So I did and I spent those moments thinking about how they looked as they nursed. They nursed together for a few minutes that night.
They have not initiated nursing since. I do not even have a little engorgment which supports my thoughts that my supply had died. I honestly feel as though I am in mourning. I have been physically connected to these babies every single day for almost 2 years and now it may be over. My heart is so heavy and I am feeling very guilty that I have not done more to make it last longer.
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Amy, I had no idea they hadn't nursed in days! Wow! The fact that you are not engorged at all does sound like your milk supply was very low. You are so AMAZING for nursing twins for 2 years. You experienced so many difficulties and yet you stuck it you. It is very normal to mourn because nursing has been such a huge part of your relationship with them. I hope you get peace about it.
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